|Posted on November 22, 2020 at 7:40 PM|
Anxiety is building the more I learn. I am a little anxious because I want to reach my deadline, July 15th 2021, but the more I learn, the more TIME I see in this and I am not the one to settle, I know myself as a perfectionist when I want what I want and I set my mind to it.... but i'd HATE to miss my deadline. So...I'm just going to have say that, if, for some reason, I don't make my deadline it's because I still want to get some things in order and be true to my vision. At the end of day, having time on my side is good and expected (i've given myself PLENTY of time), but the project is what's more important so if I must publish after the date, we are still going to get the book. Trust me, I am going to pray that this goes easier than I imagine, I just have consider everything. I've never been down this route before and I don't want it to happen too easy. This is what I've been preparing for all these years.
I usually like to think this way, anything an everything can be thrown at me. So I am going into this thing with a vision and coming out with a product no matter what it takes. This is my magnum opus.
I been doing my research today on the foundations of my next step. So much mainstream information out there...I need someone who can and will take the time to listen and understand what I am envisioning and what I am wanting to create. This gets personal. This is where your passion has to drive your project. This gets expensive, I must consider. My soul doesn't lead me to submitting my manuscript or ideas to just anyone and anywhere. This person can't be searched and found on demand, they have to be discovered. A hidden gem. You have to tumble upon them in your search with what you already have and admire. Dig deep and you gotta reach a little higher in the sky and hope for something bigger to connect with. A connection that is unique to you and your career aspirations and vision for your magnus opus. I believe if you dig deep enough, God will send you someone you deserve. This is the kind of faith I have, I don't know where its going to come from, but I always know I gotta find it. And when you do, you just know it. (Or maybe it's just the next step in what you're looking for).
I found someone I really hope to connect with. I am hopeful and excited. As always, I put my heart and soul into to reaching out, told them everything. I hope I get a response back. This experience definitely gave me the direction and atmosphere I wanted that doesn't feel mainstream, noisy, and untrustworthy. In fact, it is highly validated and credible. I want this. I'm anxious at how much it's going to cost me, but, you ain't gotta worry about that. When it's done, it'll be worth every penny.
This has just been an update on my journey. Super happy, thanks for reading If you're like me, anxious about anything, I'll share this scripture with you to encourage us both. Enjoy your journey. Peace and blessings
"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your request be made known to God" -Phil. 4:6