|Posted on November 17, 2020 at 5:10 PM|
I decided and felt the journey of this season shifting to solitude and self-care. It’s awesome when one walks in the spirit and remains conscious of their soul speaking that you begin to shift with time and do what’s best for you.
First, I felt the urge to ease off of social media as I get real with myself. It doesn't feel scary, it feels exciting. I’ve witnessed so many new beginnings surrounding me in my circle that I feel deep in my soul it’s time for me to get ready as well.
As I’ve been embracing this change though, something has been holding me back. Something old…and overdue. That led me to the second revelation in this seasonal shifting; I haven't been taking (i’d say myself) the best care of my well-being. And if I am to evolve within my soul’s calling I need to listen to myself and follow the steps,…to getting ready. These past couple days, I haven’t been happy with the way I’ve been looking and feeling. Eating everything, left and right, since my birthday! To the outside world with my family and friends, sure, it's no problem, maybe i'm "overreacting" . But at the end of the day, you are the one who KNOWS what makes your soul happy and what your body truly needs. And for me, that was attaining a better active lifestyle. I want to lose weight, I want to be more fit, sexy, and energetic because that’s who I am deep down. I want and need that to show with my books (taking myself serious).
Not only am I taking something from deep within and publishing it to the world, but I am constantly striving still BE WHO I AM. I feel this is the last step (don’t get me wrong, life isn't over)…but this is the last step into…more of a MATURE, independent, passion/purpose driven ADULTHOOD I feel I want to embrace (I dont know about you, and maybe someone reading this is far ahead of me).
It’s hard work, but the more I embrace this journey I want to take, (which has been going well) the more I seclude. Perhaps, that is revealing more true of who I am. I’ve always been an introvert, and Covid didn't have to tell me that. Now that my sister has moved away, I guess I have more space to discover who I am without her. She is my other half…where ever she went, she represented me and wherever I went, I represented her. But together, apart, we must BECOME who we are. This is that. The journey, the beginning
I am excited for the journey and the more things to come. (Spoiler alert: I can’t wait to be an auntie!)
I want to disappear in the name of self-love and self-care. My love life is solid, my financial stronghold is solid, my family is solid and I want to continue developing my book in peace and with patience, making it more fulfilling for myself and my audience. God is doing a new thing. I love self-reflecting, if you know yourself, then you know me very well and it’ll be easy to follow. But what makes me different from you? (that’s what I also want you to think about as you journey with me). We are the same, but very different. That’s interesting.
So you won't see me much on social media, here and there, and maybe posting my word of the day….But I will be doing some positive soul work (getting rest, getting exercise, sunlight, water, food, flossing, moisturizing my hair and skin, and doing what I love). #selfactualizationprojectt #happinessprojectt
And lastly, I am so proud of my family and friends with their growth and new beginnings. I want to give you all shout outs but I don’t know if that’s a good idea, putting all your business out there. You know who you are. If your reading this, please show some love and let me know you're there, tell me how you're feeling, what are you up to in short words? Otherwise, I’ll see you soon kinfolk and friends.